After multiple rehabs, detoxes and impatient psychiatric hospitalisations I had given up on any chance of ever getting clean, let alone living any kind of life. I had lost my children, my family, my home and my dignity. I was so, so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’d given up on myself and I’d reached the stage where my family and friends had given up too. I honestly didn’t know what to do. I remember squatting in my old house, emptied of furniture, no electricity, but with my children’s posters and photos still on the wall , All alone , deciding that I would kill myself. It was Christmas. But I couldn’t stand up, I was so wasted, and instead I called the only person I could think of, Nev (who had been a part of my only other attempt at recovery) I was at rock bottom and desperate . No one else would take my calls. Nev did. He saved me. It’s really as simple as that. He spoke with my family, he organised rehab, found me a bed, and was a huge part of my rehab/recovery journey. When people care, it can change your life. I’m nearly a year clean, I work full time and study part time, I have deep connections with my family and have forged amazing new friendships. I have the love and respect of my children and see them regularly. I am active in the recovery community and hold service positions to be able to freely give away what was given to me. I am a productive member of society. I never imagined that I could change as much as I have, I never knew there was a way out . I didn’t believe anyone cared enough. I didn’t know how to care enough. There are many people that have helped me on the road to recovery and the life I am blessed to live now, but it started with Nev, and I feel privileged to be able to write this testimonial. Thank you for everything. It took a while, but I got there. Much love, and god bless xx.