After multiple rehabs, detoxes and impatient psychiatric hospitalisations I had given up on any chance of ever getting clean, let alone living any kind of life. I had lost my children, my family, my home and my dignity. I was so, so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I’d given up on myself and I’d reached the stage where my family and friends had given up too. I honestly didn’t know what to do. I remember squatting in my old house, emptied of furniture, no electricity, but with my children’s posters and photos still on the wall. All alone , deciding that I would kill myself. It was Christmas. But I couldn’t stand up, I was so wasted, and instead I called the only person I could think of, Nev (who had been a part of my only other attempt at recovery) I was at rock bottom and desperate. No one else would take my calls. Nev did. He saved me. It’s really as simple as that. He spoke with my family, he organised rehab, found me a bed, and was a huge part of my rehab/recovery journey. When people care, it can change your life. I’m nearly a year clean, I work full time and study part time, I have deep connections with my family and have forged amazing new friendships. I have the love and respect of my children and see them regularly. I am active in the recovery community and hold service positions to be able to freely give away what was given to me. I am a productive member of society. I never imagined that I could change as much as I have, I never knew there was a way out . I didn’t believe anyone cared enough. I didn’t know how to care enough. There are many people that have helped me on the road to recovery and the life I am blessed to live now, but it started with Nev, and I feel privileged to be able to write this testimonial. Thank you for everything. It took a while, but I got there. Much love, and god bless xx.